Sometimes I wonder why God still loves me when I think about all of the ungodly things I think, do, say, etc...
Sometimes I wonder why God still loves me when I choose to not do godly things - when I chose to not love, to not exercise mercy, to not be thankful, to not give of myself, etc...
Sometimes I forget that I have been remade, and that God isn't finished with me - that He is continuously refining me in and through His pure and perfect love.
Sometimes I forget that the scars I have acquired along the way don't have to be ugly, but that they can be a beautiful reminder of God's amazing faithfulness and absolutely unconditional love. Even when they hurt from time to time. Even when I allow myself to question everything because I am reminded of the past.
But I do know this: God never forgets why He loves me, why He sent His precious Son to die for me - to die for everyone - why He will always be there even when I lose my way and lose sight of Him and His love. And, what a reason to rejoice that is! Even when I fail - mmmmm, which is pretty much all the time - He is right there to pick me up and love me...even when I try to push Him away.
For those of you who might not know me as well as others, one of my absolute favorite bands is Tenth Avenue North. This band writes amazingly honest and broken songs. I know I can always be pointed towards Christ by working through their songs. Two of their songs that really serve as a reminder of God's perfect love -even when it absolutely hurts- are You Are More and Any Other Way. This first video below is the music video for You Are More and the second video is the video journal talking about Any Other Way. They are both really outstanding videos.
God is always there, even when He seems far away. He is always in control, even when it seems like everything is falling apart. We are always going to mess up, but He will always be right there waiting for us to run back into His healing arms...always.
Praying everyone getting ready to travel around to see friends and family has safe, safe travels and wonderfully blessed times with loved ones.
I'll be home soon, family! Just one more full day and I'll be in your arms! Oh, sweet Texas, I cannot wait to be back on your solid, unfrozen ground.
All my love, always,
~MW
